Communion is one of those things that is just difficult to explain.
One of the bloggers I summarized it as follows - there are just some
experiences beyond our human ability to match words to them and this
would be it. I could not concur more with someone about communion.
It is beyond words.
I went through a period when I was becoming Catholic where I just
couldn't understand transubstantiation, this is the Catholic belief
that the elements become the actual body and the actual blood of
Christ and it is a mystical moment. All of communion is supposed to
be mystical. I just couldn't buy it. I was a science major and I
know science and how could this happen. I had prayed about it for
several months as I was getting ready for my confirmation and refused
to be confirmed if I couldn't get my head around this idea. Then I
went to a church service across the Hudson River in this large church
and I prayed that God help me to understand. As the priest raised
his hands and asked Jesus into the elements, I felt a feeling of
God's presence so large, overwhelming, yet all encompassing and
loving that it is beyond words. Tears poured out of my eyes and I
felt so awed I had difficulty raising myself to go to the altar to
accept the gifts. I did go through with becoming Catholic. I was
not sure if that was transubstantiation but God's presence was there
and that was good enough for me.
As I have come to understand more about the protestant stand on
communion and in particular the United Methodist stance I have come
to understand my experience a bit more. For us the scientific fact
of it actually turning into God's flesh and blood is not the case.
It is the out pouring of the spirit on those elements, God's presence
in that space and our choosing to come to the table. Grace is beyond
our choice. God's pull on our lives is always there, but we do have
the choice to accept it. To come to the table in eager anticipation
of being filled with God's love and in that love trying to walk God's
path out of love. As our communion service say -
"Make
them be for us the body of Christ that we may be for the world the
body of Christ redeemed by his blood." (UMH p. 10).
When Jesus used the metaphor of becoming the bread and blood of
salvation he meant to be shocking. Some may have understood him to
be literal but he was playing off a cultural experience of the time
to ingest portions of Holy scrolls to remind oneself of how to live.
To take in the Holy in such a way that it becomes part of you and
you must live it out. To suggest that he was the Holy was truly
shocking, but ingesting the Holy wasn't completely novel.
Jesus calls his flesh and blood to be true food or true spiritual
fulfillment, and compares it to the Manna that left you wanting. He
is promising here that the new covenant that includes him is going to
be different to wandering lost in the desert and being given just
enough to sustain life but not really satisfy. Jesus will satisfy
our hunger if we choose to accept the grace that is offered us, that
is constantly pulling us, causing us to be hungry for something.
That restless feeling of needing more spiritually is a call to come
to the communion table, to choose to be fed.
The absolute miracle is of communion is that when you choose to come
to the table truly seeking Christ, truly wanting to be spiritually
fed, Jesus has promised to meet you there. Not only has
Jesus promised to meet you there, but he promised to help you live out that life.
Jesus promised to meet you there, but he promised to help you live out that life.
So how do you choose to come to the communion table? Is it a process
devoid of any real commitment, or are you truly expecting to meet
Christ? Are you coming feeling hungry and dissatisfied with your
spiritual life or do you not have time to think of such things? What
kind of life are choosing to have? A life without Christ, or an
eternal life? Are you choosing to have Christ live in you, to answer
that pull? To truly believe that Christ came to rewrite our covenant
with God, no matter how outrageous it seemed at the time or even
today? How do you come to the table?